I may or may not blog tomorrow,depending on my schedule....tomorrow is my daughters birthday!!!She will be 4 years old and I don't know where the time has went.Its hectic with her birthday so close to Christmas and we didn't plan it that way(I swear!)but its all totally worth it!!!She is very special to us,not just because she is my only child and our only child together(hubby has 2 older kids 12 & 17)but because she is the baby I thought I would never have!I have Type II diabetes and other health issues,and had difficulty getting pregnant.A year after we were married,I miscarried a baby at 10 weeks and let me tell you no matter how much time passes,you never forget that hurt.I went into a deep depression and even took up smoking again,convinced I would never be a Mom and of course thats when it happened!A month before the baby I lost would have been due,I found out I was pregnant with my daughter!Thank goodness I had top notch health insurance because I had to see a neonatal specialist every week for months and although she wasn't due until January,the doctors decided to take her early-good thing-she was amonth early and still weighed 7 lbs!!!My husband,being the brave guy he is,watched the entire C-section!
At a time when other women my age had teenagers,I brought home a newborn who had to be on a heart moniter 24-7 as a precaution and I lost alot of sleep but oddly enough,that was the happiest time of my life.
Fast forward 4 years and its still mind boggling how that tiny little girl grew into a tall skinny toddler with unlimited energy!Her doctor said with her height like it is,she will probably top out at 5'11 or so when shes done growing years from now!Hard to fathom,considering we still call her "the baby" and probably still will when shes 30.I never thought I would be a Mom but I am and its the best job I ever had!!!!Its funny how a child can change your life....for the better and forever!
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Daj Ja Vue?!?!?! I lost a child at 13 weeks and the month the baby was due, I got pregnant with my youngest. God only gives you what you can handle. My youngest had colic for the first 6 weeks of his life. If the sun was shining, he was crying. I wish that experience on no one. And he is still a little demanding. The death of a child (full term or not) has a lasting effect on the parties involved. But I would not have my son, if not for losing the other. Thats a gift I am forever indebted to God for.
Wow we have more in common than blogging!Had I not lost that 1st baby,I wouldnt have my daughter either!!!Miscarriages are way more common than people think and often theres no real reason or cause-it just happens.
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